Friday, December 19, 2008

Show Your Love

If We Hold On Together


We have our own problems, we often think it's never ending but God never gives you a challenge you cannot take.

Back when we were living in an apartment (2005), life's never easy. Money was hard to come by but easily spent. I couldn't find a decent work but my wife was already working at an iCafe that time. I stopped College, that's maybe the cause why I can't find a decent work so most of the time I'm at home, I do the cooking and some laundry, I do freelance typing jobs and everything for extra income. Water was a problem in our apartment, though there is faucet water, it is limited only to a certain time so I usually go out and pail some water from a deep well near a creek. When I cook, I try to budget 50 php (Roughly $1.5) for our dinner and tomorrow's breakfast. I have once thought if this will end or we continue living like this. Fortunately we haven't got a child who'd suffer more if so we happens if we did have one.

Usually before we sleep, my wife asks me to sing a song for her. Though not a singer, I try my best to do so. Of course I'd repeat the same song and my wife would interfere me to sing something else. I ask her then to talk about our lives before as I'm thinking of a song to sing for her.

My wife recalled about her childhood. Family of seven but they should have been eight since one died due to sickness, she got 3 brothers and she's second eldest among her 4 sisters. Their eldest stowed away as for personal reason she didn't knew since she was just a child back then. She told me that they lived by the shore with their house on stilts. Life was hard for them, either they have to fish for their food if they don't have money or never eat at all. What her father gains from work of making hollow blocks (bricks) was never enough. When storm came, they have to move again to another place, she said, seeing their house being torn apart by the storm was kind of heart breaking for her. I was a bit surprised, she didn't told those things before then I continue to listen. She told about when she were to go to school, she had to support her own studies when she was on Grade 2. She'd do laundry for her teacher in return of getting education. On her free time she giggled that she used to secretively harvested water spinach from a neighboor's marsh and sold it in the market, she even blurted into laughter after telling me when they were caught by the owner and chased her there. She did everything to support her studies and at the same time help her mother now that one of her sisters worked in a far place from theirs. There came a time that they have to move again to another place due to some quarrel that her father was involved, her father's back was slashed by a Bolo. Her High school years came meaning more expenses and such. She worked as a maid to support further her studies, Education was totally important for her. She worked until she stepped up to College but eventually stopped at 2nd year. She decided then to sail away from their place and came to Manila to look for greener pastures and her lost Eldest sister. As much as her mother stops her, she had no choice, good thing that she has her brothers to look after their mother. She's the only one in the family that has reached College level on her own effort, she proudly said to me. Hearing her story I suddenly felt sorry for our situation. I then shared mine.

Being eldest to a family of 4, I was totally nurtured with almost everything my parents have to offer even though I have one impaired eye due to a birth defect. My father got a good job, we had our own house on dry land and I was the only child back then. I get to study at a Private School on elementary. We had a just ok house, though it flooded inside whenever a storm came but not really much of a problem. My younger sister get only to study on a Government-run school on elementary. All my younger sisters and brother get to study only on a Public school. I can say, I am so much blessed. High school came and I get to study on one of prestigious schools in our place where only a limited and qualified people can study at. I never experienced working to support my own studies. But who would have thought, there's really a wheel of destiny and by then we were at the bottom part of it. When I was studying at College, my younger brother and sister were already at High school and my youngest sister was at Elementary. The one next to me which is my younger sister was going to graduate the next year. I didn't elaborate more but I stopped studying. "Everything else was history after then.", I told my wife.

My wife reminded me if I had thought of a song because it's already midnight and she had to go early the next day. So an old song flashed in my mind which I heard last time on a Radio Station on Sunday.


If We Hold On Together
By: Diana Ross

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I


I don't know, but she cried after that and hugged me tight. I told her that she must thank God even though she had that kind of life before because there are other people who suffered more and still suffering at that time.
I told her I'd show her something the next day before she go to work.

The next day, we went to the iCafe where I do some sidelines and show her an old pic.



I don't know how she reacted, but I think she felt sorry for the child in the picture. I said to her that we should be thankful in everything we had and having. I don't know if I saw tears forming around her eyes that she told me that dust came through her eyes. But actually I kind of cried when I saw that pic back then. We all should be thankful in what we have. Right now, our lives are not the same anymore, we're going up the cursed wheel of destiny and prepared if it so happens we go down again.

If only there's something we can do about them. I know there is.

If We Hold On Together


We have our own problems, we often think it's never ending but God never gives you a challenge you cannot take.

Back when we were living in an apartment (2005), life's never easy. Money iwas hard to come by but easily spent. I couldn't find a decent work but my wife was already working at an iCafe that time. I stopped College, that's maybe the cause why I can't find a decent work so most of the time I'm at home, I do the cooking and some laundry, I do freelance typing jobs and everything for extra income. Water was a problem in our apartment, though there is faucet water, it is limited only to a certain time so I usually go out and pail some water from a deep well near a creek. When I cook, I try to budget 50 php (Roughly $1.5) for our dinner and tomorrow's breakfast. I have once thought if this will end or we continue living like this. Fortunately we haven't got a child who'd suffer more if so we happens if we did have one.

Usually before we sleep, my wife asks me to sing a song for her. Though not a singer, I try my best to do so. Of course I'd repeat the same song and my wife would interfere me to sing something else. I ask her then to talk about our lives before as I'm thinking of a song to sing for her.

My wife recalled about her childhood. Family of seven but they should have been eight since one died due to sickness, she got 3 brothers and she's second eldest among her 4 sisters. Their eldest stowed away as for personal reason she didn't knew since she was just a child back then. She told me that they lived by the shore with their house on stilts. Life was hard for them, either they have to fish for their food if they don't have money or never eat at all. What her father gains from work of making hollow blocks (bricks) was never enough. When storm came, they have to move again to another place, she said, seeing their house being torn apart by the storm was kind of heart breaking for her. I was a bit surprised, she didn't told those things before then I continue to listen. She told about when she were to go to school, she had to support her own studies when she was on Grade 2. She'd do laundry for her teacher in return of getting education. On her free time she giggled that she used to secretively harvested water spinach from a neighboor's marsh and sold it in the market, she even blurted into laughter after telling me when they were caught by the owner and chased her there. She did everything to support her studies and at the same time help her mother now that one of her sisters worked in a far place from theirs. There came a time that they have to move again to another place due to some quarrel that her father was involved, her father's back was slashed by a Bolo. Her Highschool years came meaning more expenses and such. She worked as a maid to support further her studies, Education was totally important for her. She worked until she stepped up to College but eventually stopped at 2nd year. She decided then to sail away from their place and came to Manila to look for greener pastures and her lost Eldest sister. As much as her mother stops her, she had no choice, good thing that she has her brothers to look after their mother. She's the only one in the family that has reached College level on her own effort, she proudly said to me. Hearing her story I suddenly felt sorry for our situation. I then shared mine.

Being eldest to a family of 4, I was totally nurtured with almost everything my parents have to offer even though I have one impaired eye due to a birth defect. My father got a good job, we had our own house on dry land and I was the only child back then. I get to study at a Private School on elementary. We had a just ok house, though it flooded inside whenever a storm came but not really much of a problem. My younger sister get only to study on a Government-run school on elementary. All my younger sisters and brother get to study only on a Public school. I can say, I am so much blessed. Highschool came and I get to study on one of prestigious schools in our place where only a limited and qualified people can study at. I never experienced working to support my own studies. But who would have thought, there's really a wheel of destiny and by then we were at the bottom part of it. When I was studying at College, my younger brother and sister were already at Highschool and my youngest sister was at Elementary. The one next to me which is my younger sister was going to graduate the next year. I didn't elaborate more but I stopped studying. "Everything else was history after then.", I told my wife.

My wife reminded me if I had thought of a song because it's already midnight and she had to go early the next day. So an old song flashed in my mind which I heard last time on a Radio Station on Sunday.


If We Hold On Together
By: Diana Ross

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I


I don't know, but she cried after that and hugged me tight. I told her that she must thank God even though she had that kind of life before because there are other people who suffered more and still suffering at that time.
I told her I'd show her something the next day before she go to work.

The next day, we went to the iCafe where I do some sidelines and show her an old pic.

http://img122.imageshack.us/img122/263/vulturechildez1.jpg

I don't know how she reacted, but I think she felt sorry for the child in the picture. I said to her that we should be thankful in everything we had and having. I don't know if I saw tears forming around her eyes that she told me that dust came through her eyes. But actually I kind of cried when I saw that pic back then. We all should be thankful in what we have. Right now, our lives are not the same anymore, we're going up the cursed wheel of destiny and prepared if it so happens we go down again.

If only there's something we can do about them. I know there is.

Friday, August 8, 2008

My "Diego's Art Nouveau: Loading Screen Contest" Entries (1st week)

Gee, I musn't have updated my blog for so long. (Almost 3 months XD)
Anyway since I got more time to spare, I decided to join sGE's Website Contest.
Here are my entries








Comments are welcome. =)

Friday, May 23, 2008

Things Happen (Episode 2)

My first MMORPG was Ragnarok Online™ back on 2001, I was on Chaos server and when August came, I transfered to Loki.


Nah, that's me on a Private Server


Before Granado Espada, there's one MMO I loved so much. It's Pristontale, though almost everyone says it sucks, when you really love a game, you can live with its negative qualities just like in real life. I played on ePT as they call it, it's an international server where it is Free to Play until you reach a certain level (forgot if it's Lvl30 or 49). Then eventually, Pristontale came into the Philippines. I was one of the first 1000 Closed Beta Testers, Installers and some merchandise were mailed right through our doorstep, a letter of acknowledgement was included too with the mail. Well, I managed to save some screenshots of my Closed Beta experience in Pristontale Philippines.

Priestess' Healing Skill

The one and only emote in the game, just type "yahoo"


Well as every Closed Beta in every MMORPG, there's always character wipe at the end of the phase, quite sad about it (I barely leveled because I'd spent most of my time exploring). Argh, I lost my last minute of CBT screenshots because I've uploaded it on my Friendster that got deleted. Every Beta Tester should get over with it, I know.

Weee, Open beta! But what? pPT is Pay to Play on commercial launch? That was quite hard for me but PT was the first MMO that I liked so much, might as well shell out some money just to play at commercial launch. Just as almost every MMO out there, Grind... grind... and grind, days become ordinary and tiring also but THINGS HAPPEN you know. I met someone in pPT.




My Angel...

Yes, my ingame sweetheart. Her ingame name may sound unusual (baba37l). Yeah I'm aware of those shemales out there but sometimes I trust my intuition.

Delacroix and baba37l XD

Long story short, She became my in-game Girlfriend, we met in Manila (that was 2005 I think) and we're official. A lot questioned our relationship, not only because it's a long distance relationship and we just met in a MMORPG, it's because of our age gap. yes she told me back then that she's 26 but she's actually 29, I was 19 years old. So, 10 years gap but we didn't mind. As of now she lives with me here in Batangas after we lived-in at Manila for about almost 3 years. We still don't have a baby though.

Guess that's for now. Things happen, aren't they?

A Not-so News Flash Around the Corner

Nothing particular and nothing special...

It's just one of my neighbors committed suicide. What for? Because of his boyfriend... yes you read it right - HIS boyfriend. It was just last night, before I went home I bought some BBQ for dinner and on my way home I notice some commotion going on, people murmuring about someone in the hospital, if he's still alive, how did he look and everything. So I hurry home to know who's this particular individual that committed suicide. The news was all over even my Mother knew some of the details about it, say... news travel sure fast along with some gossips. I'd rather not mention his name but as far as I know he was drunk at that time, he joked around with his friends that he's going to hang himself and so they took it as a joke.

Then in a not so lighted area at a hut near our house they saw a familiar figure seems like hanging but only a half an inch above the ground. They thought he was only joking to it as he could just simply stand on his toes while seemingly look hanging. To their curiosity they gently slapped his face and on their mere surprise he indeed committed suicide. They said there were so much Mucus coming out of his nose and his lip was very dead pale, but he was still alive. A few people helped him out, one to hold him up, another to straighten his body and his father to remove the blanket that he used to hang himself. A Tricycle was available right away to bring him to the hospital. That was all I knew about what happened.

About why he did it is what really puzzles me. HE committed suicide because of HIS boyfriend. I knew him but I didn't know he would do such a thing, maybe because he's drunk, well he couldn't be so drunk by that time I think. He's finally out of the hospital, the doctors said that his lungs quite swelled maybe due to trapped air and even suggested that he should be transferred to the ICU but his parents have no money for it so they just brought him home. As of now I think he's okay and I also knew the Boyfriend of HIM they are talking about. If I'm not mistaken, he's the 14 year old guy that I taught how to play Granado Espada.

The reasons are still a mystery to me, but I feel that I need not to bother, it's their lives anyway.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Things Happen (Episode 1)

Just when you think things are going your way, now it becomes totally ruined. Why I'd say that? Look at seaGE. I've been a pioneer since CBT moreover, I've been anticipating so much of this MMO back when it was still a Teaser Site (www.granadoespada.com back then).



My CBT Barracks



CBT Poses


CBT Ass Kicking Action XD

I get to play GE when I was on Manila, such old moments, and when CBT ended I waited for OBT of course. I get to play on OBT but as soon as the news of GE going P2P (Pay to Play) it kinda discouraged me on continuing. (yeah I and most of us can't sustain a weekly or monthly fee for it). So I have no choice but do drop GE, oh so much I wanted to play. I've tried playing different MMO's (including Private Servers), nah I got bored of them immediately.

Hey, what's with the box over the head?

Just when I almost forgot everything about it, I came back to Batangas. I didn't expect that someone's playing GE at our place besides the fact that in Manila (particularly around QC - Caloocan Area) I'd rarely or almost don't hear anything about GE being played or discussed of.

I guess things happen you know. Maybe GE is totally destined for me. seaGE was on F2P already when I came back, I can live with Item shop but the most important is that finally I can play GE to my heart's content.